ive been here for awhile, but ive had to go under a new name because of 'stalker' issues. if you know what i mean but thanks for the comment.

x Gnosis x

i would save no one. if you could go back in time that would fuck the time line up anyways. point is, no one is meant to be saved. even if you dreamed.

x Gnosis x

yes you can and yes you can. the person under this comment is a douche. only you can control what you feel. but if you are weak and vulnerable then youre fucked.

x Gnosis x

If i could save anyone it would be.... either my Papm or....my grandmas parents....orrrrrr.......Amelia Eirheart...she rox

[actorinblack]

wow, i'm like on the brink of crying right now  i'm really sorry to hear about your friend. it's horrible when things like that happen, i'm really sorry.

love.venus

Yes, I absolutely do care.

It is good to know that he never gave up and that he continued fighting.  He was stronger than he ever gave himself credit for.

Thank you for telling me.  I'm sorry that we've both lost someone we care for.  For you, I am sorry that the pain is there, but for some reason, I think that Zeke still lives as a part of you.  I guess it's weird to say, but you two seemed like kindred spirits and it was good that you found a friendship in him, and he in you, that would be so strong.

[Siriana]

What?!
Oh my god...
What happened?!
I-I'm in shock...
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I liked this entry because I've had those same thoughts. I know I shouldn't think about it but I do. I think it's almost natural. Anyway, I don't want people moping around at my funeral. I want them to have fun, to share nice memories and to laugh. I don't think the last time people think of me openly like that should be upsetting. I like your thoughts and how you view it. I kind of agree that the epitaph should be left to someone else, although I do like your sister's idea. Oh well. Take care and don't think about it too much.

Carolina

we all need a lifeline. or something/someone to focus and rely on. and i know what its like to want to jump in front of a car or something along those lines. i used to stand in the edge of this cliff near my place and for hours id just feel the wind and will myself to fall of it. i never did. im so glad i didnt.

about your body, why dotn you go and see a doctor and tel them all of this. give yourself a good rest too if that would help. you will be okay.

take care

xoxo

Losing someone close or not can be quite a blow. I'm sorry for your loss. Do you have anyone you can talk to?
~Love Mystic

I know that you can't let go and I could advise you to do that, but how would you? When you love someone as deeply as you do it's hard to let go; to move on. I don't really understand what he is doing to hurt you. Maybe you've explained it somewhere in this diary, so it's hard for me to give you any kind of advice.

I will say this; if you can't let go, put your foot down and insist that things change, however they need to change, for YOUR sanity.

I'm sure you never knew him at all.

But alas, pass on my regards.

y did zeke leave????!!!

i mis reading his entries!!!!!!!

Omg I understand how you feel, I've had points in my life that I felt that way and I know so many people who have felt that way and we're all still here. I know that if you got through it that day you can get through it again if you think about how many people care about you, even if they don't tell you everyday. I got through it. Many of my friends got through it. Just believe in yourself.

            -Carly

Yeah Ashlee Simpsons hair sure is important. To some I guess.

But if her hair isn't imporatnt to you

Is the bickering gridlocked system far superior over the one-party debacle hosted by neo-conisit cevangeliical Rebulicanism from the last five years?

The declinging health care and illegal border crossing?

Disbanding monarcies?

Of course not all that stuff is boring. And hard for everyday "people," to grasp their noggins around.

Oh and everyone loves cherry. That's why most things are cherry flavored. If money was edible, it'd be cherry flavored.

This is just depressingg!!

COME BACK!!!

<3

You can't be serious.
I-I'm surprised...
Thank god baby&him are fine.
I really miss him&his entries
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i know how u feel and i love ur mdd name

i hope the best

Disney Princess' ROCK!!! ;) My name is Abbey, and my username is punkgirl953. I don't have many entries, and all the entries that I have are totally random, but I like it when people read. It seems like when I read the comments left by other people, I'm not bored. (Is that's possible)
Thanks for being relitively intresting,
-Abbey

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^ I don't know how to make it big enough to show you I care!!

Hey,

I know exactly what you mean!!! well...used to....its freaking stupid how they just leave with a "Im fine". I don't get it!

-koko

This is exactly how it is for me. We all have our share of problems, some more complicated than others, but everyone needs to vent. They need to know that their problems aren't just problems, but apart of themselves. To know someones problems is to know a large part of them.

I was a listener to many people. A girl I've known less than a week told me things she's never told anyone in her life because she was so desparate to vent. Let me tell you, she's pretty f***ed up. I love her for it though, because I know the worst part of her life and she never has to hide in front of me.

I've given up on talking to people out loud. I like MDD because no one actually knows me, so I can write and bitch and whatever and people get it. Most of it anyway.

All I can really say is goodluck.

<3

good luck

hope gets better for you as gym wise

sounds fun hehe

[sweetliljesusfan1985]

sorry really

hopes all gets better for you this year

have a better day every other day

[sweetliljesusfan1985]

if it matters, i hope tomorrow is better for u.

i saw ur comment in some1 elses diary and u said some pretty strong words about God so i decided 2 come read ur diary im really glad i did i can help u. here r a few verses from the bible ill rite them out 4 u to make ur life easier. her they r......some1 duz love u God duz soo much that he sacrificed  his only son 4 u...John 3:16 for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life.   and 1John 3:1 how great is the love of God that once we accept him that we can call ourselves children of God.    Psalm 27:10 though my mother and father forsake (dont accept) me the Lord will recieve me. this verse is not specifically steered toward ur parents but to all of ur peers and people around u. and it also tell u that no matter wat others think of u God is always there 4 u no matter how alon you feel. as for ur boy trouble im sorry about that but God has a plan for ever1 and that boy wuznt in his plan he already has some1 just rite 4 u piked out and set aside u just have to put ur trust in him. i think that u have potential but u need 2 accept Jesus. I mean come on what do you have to lose???????? this descision will  effect not only your tim on earth but for the rest of eternity. i hope that u take wut i said into consideration i feel like i was tol by God to show you these few verses if u have an questions on how 2 become saved and become 1 of Gods children u feel free 2 post a comment in my diary. if u dont care about wut i said im sorry i tried 2 help but this is as much as i can do now its up to u to choose how u want to live ur life.

                                                                      -Jade

dang..... to be honest, that made alot of sence to me..... especially seeing as though i play the viola and wanted to go to julliard too...
maybe you should try to get consuling for a little while...
usually when im that frustrated i take long walks, but thats just me...
: [ i hope everything gets better... : [

Hello..how do u thank somebody after they save ur life? depends haha  

What are all the bruises from?

ur right, words change everything. and they are most effected in teens...but it will happen...sadly. =|  a person, dealing w/ that just has to learn to take it and leave it. of course, it never being that easy...i use to be very fragile w/ what ppl told me as well. it actually had me fall into depression...but going thru that...i dont regret it. sure, to this day i have to try my hardest just to make sure i never fall in that path again... ive gained so much in that experince, and isnt that what lifes about? things are said, and yes. sometimes they really do hurt. they can be things that we feel guilty or self conscience about. but those are deep insecurites we have to deal w/. find with in ourselves, u know? your whole will always have some kind of challange. u just have to get thru it and realise, u know what? it doesnt matter...im ok w/ who i am and thats all that matters.

You seriously remind me of myself so much it's freaky.

Are you actually the girl other girls hate? Or did you just write that? Coz if you are, I do kind of know how you feel. Okay, I'm just rambling now...

Niiiice diary by the way =]

hey meagan, i have an idea, why dont you write about running? you can write about how sometimes you just cant stop and stuff, and how you do it for yourself,

let me know how it goes--

sunshine1993

God cares about you so much,
more than you know! i'm sorry you're
going through so much right now..
but you're never alone and He does hear
prayers. His ways are different to ours..
sometimes we can't understand His answers
but they're for our own good. if you have the
Lord living in your heart, it means you DON'T
have to feel fake or be someone you're not anymore. (:
trust me..i've been there. i always felt like i had to
live to other peoples' standards..or present myself in
a way acceptable to them..whether it meant i was
happy or not. but not anymore.. if you're living
for someone other than people and yourself..and
that person is God; then everything falls into place
the way it should. Because all He asks of you
is to be yourself! to be true..and honest.
He sees us for who we are..and He loves us just
as we are.. where else can you find a friend like that?

i hope you feel better soon!<3

oh yeah, and i may not say too much about myself outright but... for example my username 'Columbina' means lover of fools, though i doubt you'll find that in any sort of name database.  it's about journeys really, though that's all i can say without giving it away.

;)

There are some REALLY amazing people on this site.  I think my absolute favorite is a man called gravityspull.  His diary is called 'on the lam from the law'.  Another really good one is TheManInTheBlackHat.  They write beautifully, like poets.  If you look them up, I hope you find it worth your while.

thanks for your comment by the way

i got out of bed this morning because i remembered i had poptarts in the cupboard. i don't even like poptarts all that much...

that's not meant to be caustic.  did you get that line from v for vendetta?  i'm sorry if you didn't, i just like the movie (and book) a lot.